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I am definitely having one of those days! I just want to tell everyone "No thank you, just worry about yourself." I'm not referring to friends or family members who genuinely care about me and are sincerely checking on me - but for everyone else...
I'm fine. Family is fine.
Work is good, just keeping me really busy.
Thank you for asking.
Worry about yourself, please.
It's not that I don't care that others care or I mind - its just.... I don't have time to stop and think about how I am and I don't have the energy to try to put it into words so someone else can comprehend. I just... I do better if I can just keep going. One foot in front of the other, one day after another. Healthy or not - I don't know yet. But thank you for your concern, just worry about yourself :)
I grew up hearing a good bit about depression, I had family members who suffered with it. I'm familiar with the bursts of tears, the overwhelming 'what ifs', the desired escape from everyday tasks and the wild cycles of fearlessness that can tumble a family head over heels on the cycle of depression. What I never realized, until recently, is that there are many symptoms of depression...
Lethargy - I'm just tired a lot, fatigue is part of my condition
Trouble sleeping - Its just fatigue and with the pain levels I can't really rest
Apathy - I'm still grieving, feeling lost
Sadness - Again, I'm grieving... I've been through a lot lately.
Irritability - I'm grieving and in pain, so I'm a little on edge sometimes
Detaching from friends - well when I'm hurting like this I really don't want to actually do things. Plus I'm majorly broke - all these meds aren't cheap!
Appetite and Weight - That is none of your business, but yes I've gained a bit of weight...
Pain - Hello I have Fibro, Lupus, Diabetes, PCOS, Asthma and Arthritis - aren't you paying attention?
The problem comes in whenever you have overlapping diagnoses... Is depression a side effect of an autoimmune disorder? Or is depression its own sickness that leapt on to the straw piling on the camel's back? You can see how it can all blend together...
I have been telling myself for a long time now that I'm not depressed. I'm fine, just tired. I'm dealing with everything and just resting. I'm not depressed, I'm not suicidal and I don't sit and cry buckets all the time. I work full time for crying out loud. I'm not detached, I'm broke - there's a difference. I'M FINE!
Well maybe... I mean, that.... That sounds about right. Shit, maybe I am depressed.
Well I am over feeling betrayed and now I'm just kind of pouting a bit about having to find a new doctor. Since it has been a while since I made my own selection, only thinking about my own health, I have been researching things to keep in mind when making the choice. Leave it to MedicineNet to have the best article! The article was written and edited by Medical Doctors, which explains why they thought of things I hadn't even considered. My current doctor did make a recommendation for the new physician joining the group, but I haven't made up my mind yet. I would like to remain within the Erlanger Health System, because so many of my Specialists are within the system.
Which hospital(s) does the doctor use? Are you comfortable with the possibility of being treated at one of these institutions should the need arise?
Where are routine x-rays and laboratory studies performed? Can these be done in-office, or will you have to go to an outside laboratory?
How long must you wait for an appointment after you call? Can you be seen on the same day if you have an urgent need?
Who covers for the physician when he/she is away? Whom should you call if you have a problem after-hours? If the doctor works in a group, are you comfortable with being seen by one of the practice partners?
Does the physician frequently refer patients to specialists or does he/she prefer to manage the majority of your care themselves?
The article brought up some good points, but I haven't made up my mind yet what I'm going to do.
You can check out the article in its entirety, here.
