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Have you ever been walking around, minding your own business, when BAM a fibro symptom hits you out of no where? I imagine that is how this penguin feels.
I'm having some of those moments today... achey muscles that make me lose my train of thought, swollen joints making it harder to write, and enough of a headache to keep me uncomfortable.
In the confrontation between the stream and the rock,
the stream always wins -
not by strength
but by perseverance.
- H. Jackson Brown
I've heard this expression a dozen times but this morning something inside of me clicked. The rocks of my path lately have been holding me back, when what I need to do is relax and allow myself to flow around them. Yes the barriers may slow me down but eventually I will get around them...
So now I am going to try to breathe through the stress, relax during the drama, and imagine myself - my true self - flowing around these issues, skimming past the flare up pains, slipping past the work headaches... to pool back into myself on the other side...
A new pain has struck, bad #10 on the scale of pain. It could be a fibro flare-up because of weather changing. Emergency Medical Personal thought I was drug seeking.
Even my own Doctor wasn't sure how much of this is fibro and what is new. Sometimes I'm not sure she believes in fibro or if she believes it is all weight related.
I cried myself to sleep several nights from the intensity of this pain. I can't walk unassisted, barely stand up enough to see where I'm going. Yet am told it is "part of fibro". I know enough about fibro to know that this is very different.
Pain pills numb my brain enough that I can sleep a little. It doesn't really ease the pain as much as it makes it easier for me to mentally disconnect from it.
Finally my Chiropractor figured it out! God bless him! He discovered that I have pinched a nerve in my lower back. He worked on it some and for the first time in a few days, I have non-medicated relief. Prednisone, cold packs, and his TENS unit to the rescue! With any luck, tomorrow I will be able to go back to the office :)
It is another day I thank God for the support of my family.
That is about how productive my doctor's appointment was. Non fibro pain, extreme sharp stabbing that brings tears, steals my breath, and severely limits my mobility...
At least Dr Zi was willing to give Pon's fish a band-aid... :)
Pon and Zi are the artistic creation of Jeff Thomas.
I have simply fallen in love with these little guys.
Yes this is a real van I seen driving home from work this evening!! At first I didn't realize the basket and box were tied down to the top, but even though they are secure it still makes me laugh.
I am blessed that I have insurance to see the new Doctor. I am blessed that I am able to purchase my new medications/insulin. I am blessed that I have a job that allows me to go to my doctor appointment. I am blessed that I have a family to help take care of me. I am blessed, even though I am sick. I am blessed to be able to breathe. I need to remember to breathe.
